i feel something falling from the sky. i'm so sad i made the angels cry.

ne laissez pas moi seul

i'm going to promise myself to have better posts...these are getting so redundant with the same emotions all the time.

i cannot help myself, i’m just doing what i do...

i get tingling sensations in my tummy location and i just can't help but smile.




there truly is a brighter day after ever storm. you make the world an amazing place by just living in it.

I'm Trying to Find My Way Back Home...

sorry i've been m.i.a. for the past couple months. i've been so overwhelmed by school and stress that it's actually weaken my immune system. i've had strep throat for almost a month now and it's actually getting worse. my doctor said that my body probably has a resistance to the antibiotics she gave me. and to make things worse i've had so much on my shoulder lately. i've been stressed out with college apps, boys, friends (fake ones), parents, and so much more. i promise to try to keep this posted on here. i'll have pictures of a fashion show up soon. it's not that grand i don't think but while on his business trip my dad got front row seats to an elite fahion show where they showed alberta ferretti dresses. once my dad has the time to unpack i will definitely put up the pictures. apparently the photographer was persian (i think, well one of the people were persian- that's how he got the tickets) and he took an amazing picture of my dad. i can't believe this happens to my father and not me.
anyways here are some pictures that kind of reflect my emotions at the time.

My Closet Feels Empty...

i'm started to want new things in my closet already. which isn't good but still. the parentals said if i go shopping one more time before halloween that they'll send me to therapy. pfft like they're serious! as odd as it sounds i really want a pair of the new converse all star light. i'm not really sure why i do but they seem like a pair of shoes that are not yet overrated (yet) that would be fun to play around with. maybe i'd keep it boring and just stick with black or get gold. i'd have to try them on first though. i must get ruffles and lots of it! i want a ruffled mini skirt to wear with a striped long sleeve and black tights. a black ruffled top would sound so adoarble with a bright colored mini skirt (pink, electric blue, green, etc) and yet again, tights. if you can't tell i'm obsessed with tights. and with that, i want a pair if two-toned tights like the chanel ones. i'm still yearning for a pair of cheap stirrup jeans! i really want a jumper too...preferrably in gray. a cute bright colored bubble skirt sounds fun also. i'm really into dark colors and a little splash of something bright right now. sorry, i know this isn't the most amzing post ever but i promise to try to make it more exciting. if only someone would take pictures of the outfits i wear...that'd be fun. ciao for now!

Realistic Things I’d Like to Do Before I Die:

i'm so sorry i've been lagging on the blog...i've just been so busy and stressed about school. starting tomorrow i will do my best to put more effort into my blog! in the meantime, here's a list of realistic things i'd love to do before i die. i really hope i can do most if not all of these things. and it's not all of the things either, just a list i've got so far

1. Go to Russia
2. Learn to play the ukulele
3. Go to every club in Ibiza
4. Try chocolate dipped potato chips
5. Go snorkeling in The Grate Barrier Reef
6. Feed a white tiger cub
7. Travel the Mediterranean Sea in a yacht
8. Go to a poetry bar
9. Sing karaoke
10. Go to the carnival parade in Brazil
11. Overcome my fear of heights by zip lining
12. Attend the Olympics
13. Experience the Love Parade in Germany
14. Enjoy an authentic Cuban cigar in Cuba
15. Be an extra in a film
16. Have a designer feature my clothes (preferably Dior)
17. Ride a camel into the desert
18. Spend a night in a haunted house
19. Visit a concentration camp
20. Visit the Titanic on a submarine
21. Take an African Safari
22. Attend the Choreographer’s Carnival
23. Do a fundraising event for charity
24. Have sex in a fitting room
25. Skinny-dip in the Atlantic Ocean at night
26. Learn to tango in Argentina
27. Go to a drive-in movie
28. Ride a mechanical bull
29. Retire in Europe and buy a Vespa
30. Open a Swiss bank account
31. Stay in an ice hotel
32. Go dog sledding
33. Visit the Kutna Bone Church in Prague- yes, it's actually made out of real bones
34. Meet Karl Lagerfeld and Hugh Hefner
35. Make my own wine
36. Be a Red Bull promoter
37. Visit Bran’s Castle (a.k.a. “Dracula’s Castle“)
38. Go to Bob Marley’s house
39. Converse with either Benny Benassi or Tiësto (both would be absolutely amazing)
40. Get to meet an original Club Kid

Call Me Disgusting But...

i REALLY want a pair of black denim stirrup pants. why are everyone hating on them? i think they are so adorable! i can picture my perfect outfit with them: black off-shoulder top with a white studded belt-for that ultra retro look. then i'd top it off with my black and white michael kors heels. here's some picture of the 7 for all mankind ones. but does anyone know where i can get modern denim stirrups for a cheaper price?